2008: A Strange Year

Well, here's my retrospect on my year that was...

2008 started with so much promise, such perfect moments that would turn to memoirs as life would go on, I can still remember how perfect New Years felt... Thought my life had taken a course for perfection back then, right from those moments when I embraced her before leaving her after spending what I would still say were the best 15 days that I could have ever spent in my life with anyone, the days were blissfully perfect, even though our personalities were ever so different, we fitted each other like a glove. I had always considered the year 2007 to have been one of the happiest years of my life especially for the note that it ended on, and I mislead myself to think that 2008 would be better, I was full of optimism, full of life, full of love, however none of all that was enough to keep my head together for the year that followed. Everything from my Family Life to my Love Life was always on a string and on a line throughout the year, most of the time I found myself feeling like a man without a soul or a home, but I still managed to lift myself up above all of it.

January: The start of the month was perhaps more perfect than most people would dream of, but soon (by the time I boarded that bus back home in the midst of the night) I had realized that it was going to be harder than I had calculated to be. Would never forget how excited (despite being dead tired) I was when I got back home, I'll never forget when I got back home and plonked on my bed and looked up at the roof and thought in my head and felt in my heart that I knew and felt for sure that everything would go right and she was THE ONE. Even then through all the perfection we had our misunderstandings but we always managed to stay strong through them.

On another note, right from the time I got back, I found myself with the realization that my educational life was slipping away from me as I had somehow lost my focus on it, I was missing classes and delaying batches and before I knew it, I found myself wondering what exactly I was going to do with my life but still I never really expressed those emotions to anyone as I didn't really want anyone worrying about what was going on with me and back then I thought (at least) that I could get the entire situation back to within my control in a month or two.

By the end of January, she was back with me, back in my arms, things seemed perfect again (at least on the surface) cause I always felt that I never had the need to really look beyond that when it came to her cause I knew I could trust her blindly and she would never have done something that I found distasteful or never liked. However soon I began to wonder if she had begun to take me granted with the things she did right in front of me, I found myself feeling like a complete arse for being so blind when it came to her (and that's one feeling that angers me more than anything else) however despite us having what at the time was the biggest fight I had ever had anyone (the only reason I really fought so hard was only cause I cared and wanted to stress the fact that my feelings were being taken advantage of and so was my implicit trust) The moment she turned around at 4am from her side of the bed and kissed me, she won me back within an instant and I promised myself that I would not anger over what happened no more and accept it as just another mistake. After all who doesn't make a few mistakes ? Times were tough, financially impossible, but somehow through it all we made each other happy and before we knew it, she had to get back home. (this time it was her who felt all that I had felt a month earlier) and when I saw that pretty face with the cutest sixties style hair-do I had ever seen on anyone, I fell in love with her all over again and again and again within the 3 minutes I looked at her leaving the terminus in the bus...

February: The month started off with my bro's 10th birthday, he was ever so proud to finally move out of the single digits, and how I had wished that she was there for his birthday, funny isn't it ? I somehow find a way of connecting her to everything that happens in my life, I could still see how cute she looked when she would play with him and how close they had gotten, it all seemed too perfect to be true. The perfection wavered at times however but I always believed that there would be downfalls at times, during this month though there were two instances where the number one instance being the fact that she never really respected the things I wasn't comfortable with her doing (here I was, doing only and exactly what she wanted me to do) and there she was asking me if I would be comfortable in her doing what I wasn't comfortable with, and the other instance was something she had changed between us that we had shared for a long time and in my opinion add a spark to our relationship (I mean, what's wrong with romancing things up in the strangest of ways and thinking outside the box with the person you claim to love and want to spend the rest of your life with ?) At least I didn't really think there was anything wrong, however she did. Living without what she wanted to change never hurt, but living with the fact that the way she put it across to me seemed like she was purposefully trying to distance herself from me did hurt like a bitch and even though I did get a bit upset over it, I took it in my stride eventually after a few days and never ceased to love her just the way I did when I first met her. And Baby, I will never find the right words to let you know how bad I felt when I couldn't spend Valentines with you (when I think back now) I wish that I sold a kidney of mine and spent it with you cause that would have just given me one more perfect day with you in my arms.. I'm sorry.

Besides that, I had come to realize that I had begun to love writing all thanks to her really, she managed to bring out this amazing talent and love for writing that I probably had for God knows how long... And I will always be thankful to her for that. I had begun going to classes again and even though they were erratic cause sometimes I would just stay home so I could recharge my phone instead of spending the cash I had on going to class and stuff, I knew and believed within myself that she was all I needed and as long I had her and the air that I breathed I could live without anything and stand up to face anything, she gave me the strength of a 1000 giants and yet when the thought of her touch would cross my mind I melted and trembled and found my throat choke up at the thought of ever losing her. Yeah, it kept hitting me harder and harder that I really LOVED this girl and wanted to die in her arms... To be continued.

Yum-fuckin-my

Need I say more ?
Ladies and Gentlemen...
Ferrari's new "California".

PS: I would so exchange a kidney for one.

2008 Formula One Statistics

All The Stats From The 2008 Season...

Drivers Championship:

1) Lewis Hamilton / McLaren Mercedes [22] - 98 Points
2) Felipe Massa / Ferrari [2] - 97
3) Kimi Raikkonen / Ferrari [1] - 75
4) Robert Kubica / BMW Sauber [4] - 75
5) Fernando Alonso / Renault [5] - 61
6) Nick Heidfeld / BMW Sauber [3] - 60
7) Heikki Kovalainen / McLaren Mercedes [23] - 53
8) Sebastian Vettel / Toro Rosso Ferrari [15] - 35
9) Jarno Trulli / Toyota [11] - 31
10) Timo Glock / Toyota [12] - 25
11) Mark Webber / Red Bull Renault [10] - 21
12) Nelson Piquet Jr. / Renault [6] - 19
13) Nico Rosberg / Williams Toyota [7] - 17
14) Rubens Barrichello / Honda [17] - 11
15) Kazuki Nakajima / Williams Toyota [8] - 9
16) David Coulthard / Red Bull Renault [9] - 8
17) Sebastien Bourdais / Toro Rosso Ferrari [14] - 4
18) Jenson Button / Honda [16] - 3
NC) Giancarlo Fisichella / Force India Ferrari [20] - 0
NC) Adrian Sutil / Force India Ferrari [21] - 0
NC) Takuma Sato / Super Aguri Honda [18] - 0
NC) Anthony Davidson / Super Aguri Honda [19] - 0

Constructers Championship:

1) Ferrari - 172
2) McLaren Mercedes - 151
3) BMW Sauber - 135
4) Renault - 80
5) Toyota - 56
6) Toro Rosso Ferrari - 39
7) Red Bull Renault - 29
8) Williams Toyota - 26
9) Honda - 14
NC) Force India Ferrari - 0
NC) Super Aguri Honda - 0

Wins - Drivers

1) Felipe Massa - 6
2) Lewis Hamilton - 5
3) Kimi Raikkonen - 2
=) Fernando Alonso - 2
5) Robert Kubica - 1
=) Heikki Kovalainen - 1
=) Sebastian Vettel - 1

Wins - Constructers

1) Ferrari - 8
2) McLaren Mercedes - 6
3) Renault - 2
4) BMW Sauber - 1
=) Toro Rosso Ferrari - 1

Podiums - Drivers

1) Lewis Hamilton - 10
=) Felipe Massa - 10
3) Kimi Raikkonen - 9
4) Robert Kubica - 7
5) Nick Heidfeld - 4
6) Fernando Alonso - 3
=) Heikki Kovalainen - 3
8) Nico Rosberg - 2
9) Sebastian Vettel - 1
=) Jarno Trulli - 1
=) Timo Glock - 1
=) Nelson Piquet Jr. - 1
=) Rubens Barrichello - 1
=) David Coulthard - 1

Podiums - Constructers

1) Ferrari - 19
2) McLaren Mercedes - 13
3) BMW Sauber - 11
4) Renault - 4
5) Toyota - 2
=) Williams Toyota - 2
7) Toro Rosso Ferrari - 1
=) Red Bull Renault - 1
=) Honda - 1

Poles - Drivers

1) Lewis Hamilton - 7
2) Felipe Massa - 6
3) Kimi Raikkonen - 2
4) Robert Kubica - 1
=) Heikki Kovalainen - 1
=) Sebastian Vettel - 1

Poles - Constructers

1) Ferrari - 8
=) McLaren Mercedes - 8
3) BMW Sauber - 1
=) Toro Rosso Ferrari - 1

Fastest Laps - Drivers

1) Kimi Raikkonen - 10
2) Felipe Massa - 3
3) Nick Heidfeld - 2
=) Heikki Kovalainen - 2
5) Lewis Hamilton - 1

Fastest Laps - Constructers

1) Ferrari - 13
2) McLaren Mercedes - 3
3) BMW Sauber - 2

Entire Season Review To Follow Soon...

Has the Ambassador been deposed of it's position of the Nations Taxicab & Car ?

The Hindustan Ambassador has been in production in India since 1957 and has established itself as one of the most popular & historic cars in India, It's iconic status was helped by the fact that it was preferred by India's Political Leadership. The Hindustan Ambassador is essentially based on Morris Oxford and took many of it's styling cues from it's British counter-part. Another reason for it's popularity is the fact that it's Isuzu 1800 engine was once the quickest engine option available among all the cars available in India at the time. On the side, the Hindustan Ambassador had also firmly slotted itself into the nations favorite cab position for many years, that is, up until a certain car by the name of Tata Indica was released back in 1998 with the mantra that it was to be the most modern car released by an Indian car company. There has been no turning back for the Indica though, it's sales have been nothing short of spectacular and record breaking but it has also knocked the Hindustan Ambassador off it's pedestal as the nations favorite cab. Both cars have also been given major face-lifts (though the Amby's face-life came a couple of years earlier than the Indica's) in the recent past.

However even after face-lifting the Hindustan Ambassador in the form of the "Hindustan Ambassador Avigo" it has only worsened things and the new variant of the car is nearly obscure with hardly a handful in sales whilst the Tata Indica in the form of the "Tata Indica Vista" has once again struck the market and has sold extremely well again. Does all this go to show that the good ol' Amby is finally dying out or is it that it's going to be a fad of the future to own one ? And more importantly how long will the Tata Indica reign as the nations favourite 100% Indian Vehicle...

The Fifteen Best Days Of My Life

First of all, I'm back to blogging after nearly a four month hiatus due to several reasons that are best left unsaid as I've been trying ever so hard to put my mistakes in the past and also buried as deep as possible into the ground.

With that said, let's talk about the last fifteen days of my life which have been FOR SURE the best fifteen days I could have ever wanted.

After the mess that I had made of everything, I never really knew whether I would see her face again, but thankfully I did, on the morning of the 31st of October 2008, and it was one morning that I shall never forget... I stayed up all night, tidying up and getting everything right for her and so that I wouldn't doze off and wake up late since her train was coming in early in the morning as usual (and knowing me for the heavy sleeper that I am, I would have most certainly have not woken up unless I stayed up all night). I took an early morning bus ride to the station, it was cold, dark and just plain beautiful as the monsoon breeze swept across my face as her palms do and that made me anticipate her being in my arms even more. I reached the station about an hour early and I honestly had no idea about what to do to pass the time (did I mention I had an commerce exam as well in a couple of hours ? And I forgot to get my books with me to study since I didn't think I'd need to wait for as long as I ended up waiting for), 3 cups of coffee and about 45 minutes later, I saw a light approaching along the train tracks, I felt my heart skip a beat, a minute later my phone rang... she wanted to know if I was waiting for her (what made me happy was the confidence she had in her voice when she asked me, it was more like just confirmation of me being there rather than her actually wondering). As the train approached, I made sure that I ran over to the carriage so that I would be there waiting for her the moment she got down from the train and my face would be the first one that she saw... And when she did finally get down, it hit me harder than ever before that there was nothing in this world that could ever make me stop loving her the way that I do and to me she looked more beautiful than ever before. At that moment, I knew I was way more lucky and blessed and I honestly had earlier accepted.

The entire time that we spent together was nothing short of bliss, a kind of poetry in motion you could say because I could write paragraphs on every move she made when we were together, all the times, she'd get up out of bed in the middle of night to cook me something when I was hungry (and every single time, it turned out to be nothing short of yummy), all the times we held hands and walked down my street, those few moments on the beach that we spent together, all the movies we watched which choke me up every single time that I watch them and I probably have a memory with her as every single scene goes by during those movies. Her every little smile will forever be imprinted in my head, that morning that seemed ever so peaceful at the temple, I haven't seen something or felt something as beautiful or sacred as she is, she turns my world upside down and spins it all the way around every second that she's with me. She's showed to me and made me feel what I would like to call the epitome of love and affection and a yearning and want for someone and that is something that no one is going to take away from either of us.

We've begun our second year together as well as our 1st anniversary was on the 13th of November, it was one of the most perfect nights that I'd ever spent with anyone and for sure the most romantic night that I could ever want. Her face + Her Smiles & Blushes + Chocolate + Flowers = Heaven to me. (and I know it was heaven to her as well).

I realize that we don't need to change anything at all about each other or between us to have a perfect relationship and changing things would only spoil everything, what we have is perfection and I hope to God that it stays the same forever.

It killed me when we reached the station and she had to go and the train pulled away before I could give her one last kiss, it killed me even more when I saw her unsure of when we'd be together again prior to that (I know for a fact deep within my heart that it won't be too long and I never will be without her nor will I ever let her go without me in her life)... I held the pain inside me all evening and went out for dinner with a friend (Jay) but all I could think of was her. Today was the coldest day we've had all year and while the rain poured down on me on my way home on the bike with Jay, every drop of rain felt like a needle poking my face at the speed we were travelling down empty wet roads... I closed my eyes for a couple of seconds and I knew it was now my only chance to let a few tears go as the only memory I had was the night of our anniversary when we stood outside in my backyard in the rain and kissed. When I came home to my empty room full of sticky notes that she left me, I longer for her to wrap herself up around me and feel that warmth I'd be feeling for so many days and had gotten so used to feeling, but sadly she wasn't there, try as I might have, but the tears just became uncontrollable at that point, I missed her more than ever before and I will keep missing her more and more till I see her again soon.

It's certainly going to be odd to get used to living with her 750+ km's away from me again and having to only talk to her over the phone for a while, but I know that one day we're going to be together forever and when that day comes, there's nothing that will ever keep us from being anywhere else but in each others arms every night.

All I have left to say is... Thank you Baby. I love you. Happy 1st Anniversary by the way. She's my lifeline.

Family: What It Means To Me & How It's Changed Me

If there's one thing that I've come to understand in the last 8 months is that family is something that always sticks by your side no matter what, no matter how hard you might test it with the wrongs you do and no matter how many times you feel that you're probably going to lose it, it still comes back and stands by you and that's something I personally feel is a very strong bond and power and can't really be explained.

Recently I came to realize that I need to make a couple of changes to myself once again (since I've slowly come to the terms after 18... nearly 19 years of my life that life is all about change in many aspects) in order to extend my family.. I also realized how rather silly I had been to have not given something as special and sacred as this a chance sooner, and frankly ever since I let my feelings show... I've come to hear some of the things I've been dying to hear in the last few months that's made me for the rest of my life.

I probably have one of the best family's anyone could ever really ask for, An amazing mom, a doll of a wife, the cutest brother (I know he's gonna hate me for calling him cute), super supportive grandparents, not to forget a pretty good dad as well, and amazing to be in-laws, I've been given a pretty decent life as well and that's something I'm thankful for, I have a lot that so many people don't really have and struggle to find in their lives and even though I wouldn't deny my life being hard at times, it could be a hell of a lot harder.

I really do hope that my life (the way it is right now and the support I have right now is how it'll always be).. I don't really think I'd be who I am right now if I were to lose a single person in my life that's close to me since everyone of them is extremely integral to me. Thank you. I love you.

A Review Of Every Phone I've Used

I found myself a tad bored and nostalgic remembering all the mobiles I've used and how fascinated I was the very first time I got one, and then got one that had GPRS and so on.

Bosch GSM308 [1999-2001]

This phone is so old that I can't even really find a picture of it online, I remember being 12 when I first got it, it never really had anything in it besides the ability to make calls, send and recieve sms's which hadn't even been available in India at the time unless it was at an exorbitant price. I sometimes wish I had kept it just for the sake of having it as a memory instead of hastily getting rid of it since it wasn't working at all after slogging around after being demoted to my rough use phone for two further years besides it's first year with me as my primary phone.

Ericsson T29s [2001-02]



My second phone, was a birthday present to me along with a PS2 back in 01', I remember going ooh, this is stylish back then even though now I personally am repulsed by it's entire design, it was sadly rather flimsy and most of the keys started to come apart within a year of use and also it's display was torture to read so I had to let it it go, and it seemed a bit weird to have such an ordinary phone after the whole colour phone saga began to take flight in 02' as well.

Sony Ericsson T68i [Jan - Apr 2002]



The first ever coloured phone of mine, was something I had plagued my parents to get my at the time but I ended up being a tad disappointed with it since the joystick was a little annoying and I never really liked the colour as well... I ended up exhanging it with my dad for his phone a couple of months later.

Nokia 8850 [Apr - Dec 2002]



The very first time I saw my dad with this phone I just had to have it, in a way you could call it the Sirocco of the early 00's, it never really had all that many featured but it exuded truck loads of quality and snob value at the time, sadly I ended up giving it a premature death after accidently dropping it in a bucket of water and it's display was too severely damaged to repair.

Nokia 7650 [Jan - Sept 2003]



Another phone of mine that I persuaded my dad to give to me after nearly dropping dead when I figured that it had a camera and many other features that were truly unheard of at the time, probably one of my favourite phones of all time as well especially since it was probably the biggest breakthrough in mobile technology at the time, however it's only downside was it's bulkyness.. It did it's job well though and this is truly another phone of mine that I still miss.

Nokia 3530 [Sept 2003 - Sept 2004]



Despite only having this phone for a year, This probably is for sure one of my most used phones, I'll never forget the days when gprs was new and dirt cheap and I spent many a sunday afternoon on a chat site called mopilot, I had used the keys so much in that one year that there was really no silver coating left on them.

Sony Ericsson T630 [Sept 2004 - Feb 2008]



Quite certainly the longest serving phone of mine, I got it as a birthday present from my mom, it was my primary phone for 2 long years, I loved the way it's white colour used to ooze this certain level of class that wasn't really there in many other phones and it had an absolutely amazing display at the time as well, I used it and abused it for 4 years before having to let it go.

Nokia 6600 [Feb 2005 - April 2006]



Probably one of my favourite phones to type on as well as for the fact that it was durable as hell and everyone used to find it quite shocking since I had mine in a pretty unique pearl white colour compared to the general black & silver or full black ones.. It had a pretty decent VGA cam too.

Motorola RaZr V3i [May - Dec 2006]



This was probably the first ever phone that I truly found orgasmic in terms of looks, I bought it as a used piece of a friend of mine and it was already pretty scratched up but I decided to have it for the novelty that it carried at the time, however I found the whole interface to be a bit of a pain and chucked it by the end of the year.

Nokia N72 [Dec 2006 - May 2008]



This phone is for sure my favourite phone ever not because of it's features (despite them being pretty brilliant) but for the sentimental value it carried behind it during the times that I used it. It's camera was probably the best 2MP camera I've ever seen or used, an impeccable mp3 player and despite the keys looking small, they were a joy to type on... Sadly though she rang her last in Apr 2008. =[

Current Phones : Vodafone 225 / Reliance Classic 204



At the moment, I'm plodding along with two very basic phones for the time being, the reliance is mainly so I can keep in touch with my wifey since the long distance calls on it to another Reliance number are absolutely free, and the Vodafone is just my spare rough use workhorse at the moment. As for the future, I do have my eyes on a couple of phones and at the moment, I'm loving the novelty that the iphone has to it, so i might end up getting that in the end...

She makes me feel so...

Damn ecstatic and amazed that I have her all to myself for the rest of my life, I've come to understand that finding the happiness I've found now isn't easy and I frankly am going to do everything that I possibly can to keep it for the rest of my life.

It's now been two months since we've been together, since I've felt her touch or kissed her lips or whispered in her ear "I love you" and even though things didn't even go close to perfect on the last day that we were together, every other moment that we spent together in those 4-5 days was sheer bliss, and we made all the wrongs right as well like we always have done. I sometimes feel that we truly are stuck to each other with some sort of invisible glue since we always find ourselves in each others arms at the end of every day no matter what had happened.

She's been there for me in every possibly way more than anyone else ever could, she's made me feel on top of the world with her support in the things that I like, I adore the way that she's always there to talk to about anything I'm interested in and involves herself with it (especially all our Formula 1 debates and discussions before and after every race), the way she goes out of her way and does the impossible at times to make me happy and feel loved, she keeps proving to me everyday in several different ways why this relationship of ours is one that's going to stand the test of time. I could never really find the right words to tell her how much I love her, appreciate her, adore her and I can never thank her enough for everything that she has done for me in the last nearly 8 months.

Yup, I'm flat on the floor with all her love and if anything I only intend to fall through and never stop falling...

Happy Eighth Month Anniversary in advance, baby! (Just because I'm saying it in advance doesn't mean I won't write you something again on the 13th by the way).

Sigh... I must be bloody bored

This is what I've been feeling like since last night...

-Chuckles-

I'm sure she's going to laugh and giggle when she see's this. xD

It's been a while...

Hey Hey

Hmm, it's been three months now since I have gotten around to posting a blog, and the main reason being that I didn't really have broadband at home all the while since I had been shifting and then after shifting the wonderful guys at BSNL decided to take their own sweet time in giving me a connection and I personally couldn't be bothered to go to a cyber cafe more than once and week and even when I did, I didn't honestly feel like spending too long there either, but anyway, it's time to catch up, so here we go...

-Sid

ONLY another 10 days with her… and she still never ceases to amaze me.

So then, I finally got to spend time with my baby, sadly it was only for 10 days and even though that might seem like a lot of time, it truly isn’t all that much when we’re around each other, time pretty much well and truly flies past us and before you know it, it’s all over once again and we end up having to be apart from each other once again, and that’s probably the hardest thing to get used to over and over again, since when we’re together it’s really no different from being married and living together and all of a sudden we’re so far away from each other, I truly hope things change sooner rather than later and we can always be together and not for a single day be apart.

Despite a few hiccups, the time we had together was really nothing short of perfection… Every little thing we did together, like going and watching a movie together (Race, which is by the way only the second Hindi movie I’ve seen in a theatre… See, she gets me doing things I would never normally do and I end up liking them so much as well) or just wrapping my arms around her from behind her while she’s cooking, every little moment is pretty much video taped and stored in my head for whenever I want to lay back when I’m missing her and gaze at the sky above me and think about her. I can never forget that little face of hers as I got on that train back home, she promised me shouldn’t wouldn’t shed a single tear after she disappeared out of my sight but I knew she couldn’t keep that promise and I tried my everything to get her mind off things but I knew all those tries were heading nowhere, heck I couldn’t control myself after the train slowly rolled out of the station and all of a sudden I couldn’t see her anymore.

I find myself finding relief in the fact that she’s going to be coming to Chennai next month for a couple of a days and I’d get to be with her sooner rather than later since we didn’t get to see each other since Feb prior to this trip that I made. Strangely, I just got back the other day and I’m already counting down the days to her being with me again.

She probably doesn’t really realize this but no matter what’s going on, the moment I have her in my arms, I can just pretty much forget everything and just be happy and content to feel her ever so close to me and give her all my love, and at the end of the day nothing at all denies the way she makes me feel which is really something that can never be put into words, I just hope she knows that.

She’s the perfect wife… And she’s all mine… Period.

Happy Five Months Anniversary, Baby!

Happy Five Months Anniversary, Baby!

Five months of being together, we’ve felt and gone through so much, haven’t we?
Every single day I seem to realize over and over again how much I’m in love with you.
I’m sorry for not being there with you today, but you know I’ll make It up really soon. ;]
I truly can never see myself without you.
You’ve given me and continue to keep giving me all the love and pretty much everything I ever need, don’t ever let it end?
I love you, I love you, I love you!

Hmm

I find myself wondering why all good things come to and end at this precise moment.
Ugh, anyhow, I'll post something more interesting later.

Anticipation

I wake up and I find myself realizing that it’s another early morning, another day closer to being with you again.

Seventeen days might seem like long, but I try to look on the upside of the situation and realize it could have been longer.

It’s been almost 2 months now since I last felt your touch, held your hand or kissed your lips and that time feels like an eternity, I cannot wait to be right there beside you again, feeling your every inch and every breath.

You’ve really given me all I could ever ask for, you give me all the support in doing anything I want and in the bargain end up motivating me hugely as well in the same aspect, you give me all the love and care I could ever need, you make me feel like I could never live my life without you there in it, I can never imagine coming home and not picking up the phone and yours being the very first voice I hear or not being able to tell you I love you and things like that… My life would be so very incomplete without you in it.

Anyway, I do hope that the days begin to go by faster than they currently are and then I truly do wish time stops when I’m with you so that I never have to be without you again….

Happy Women's Day, Nivy Baby!

To The Woman That I Love,

I just want to say thank you for coming into my life and giving me all that I could really ask for.
Ever since the very first time I heard your voice on the phone that day, I knew you were the one.
You’ve injected so much love into my soul and given my life so much meaning.
Your gorgeous, every inch of you is, your skin feels like the petals from a rose, your lips feel like the sweetest strawberry.
Those three words that you’ve told me so many times have never failed to brighten up my life.
Your name, face and every thing that goes with you is forever imprinted on my heart, body & soul.
Would you always be my woman ?
Would you marry me right now ?

The 08' F1 Season Preview

The 2008 Formula One Season Preview

With the 2008 F1 season just a bit over two weeks away, the tension is slowly starting to build on both the teams and drivers to either continue their 2007 form or build on it for the want of a more successful campaign in 2008. It does seem like the shortest winter break as well considering all the scenarios that played out through the 2007 season and even after it was over like the spy saga which was probably one of the things that will forever be remembered. Also new to this coming season is the lack of electronic aids like traction and launch control on the cars and also the fact that they will be all using a standard ECU which should theoretically separate the men from the boys. Also new to this season is the edition of the Singaporean GP which will be held under the flood lights, and also be the first ever F1 race held in the night.

This is how the teams and drivers stack up for the 2008 season:

Scuderia Ferrari

Reigning drivers and constructers champions will be looking to build upon their ultra successful end of the 2007 season which was also the first one in over 10 years for the team without a clear number one driver and also other key personnel in the team. After having won 8 out of 10 of the last constructers titles and 7 out of the last 10 drivers titles it’s very clear to the note that the prancing horse will be a key contender the out come of this season. For the second year in succession Kimi Raikkonen will be joined by Felipe Massa and it’s looking likely for the duo to stay put for at least till the end of the 2009 season, Kimi will clearly have no intention of letting go of his champion status this year whilst Felipe will clearly want to be champion this year as well after a solid showing for the team in the last 2 seasons.

1) Kimi Raikkonen [Championship Titles : 1 (2007)]
2) Felipe Massa

BMW Sauber F1

Runners up last season by default after McLaren were excluded from the championship will definitely be looking to close up on that elusive gap between the big two this season after showing solid form in 2007 by taking a few podiums and also keeping the big two forces in current day formula one on their toes at a couple of races. This season it’s clear to see that the team means business after stating that they want to build on last season and effectively challenge for wins on a regular basis. It’s once again stat quo on the driver front with Nick Heidfeld teaming up with Robert Kubica and the latter will clearly have to shine this season if he wants to finally step out of Nick’s shadow, whilst Nick would clearly want to have another solid season and hopefully a first victory as well.

3) Nick Heidfeld
4) Robert Kubica

ING Renault

After a very lackluster and mediocre showing by the team who managed to stop Ferrari from their run of consecutive titles by doing the double in 2005 & 2006 with Fernando Alonso & Giancarlo Fisichella back then, 2007 was a dismal season for the Renault team and took to the podium only once with Heikki Kovaleinen. But in any case, that’s all history now and the team should have a renewed hope in challenging for this seasons titles once again with Fernando Alonso once again behind the wheel and new boy Nelson Piquet Jr. joining him in the other car. Will Renault deliver the goods this season now that they’ve got their former 2 time champion back with them? Only time will tell.

5) Fernando Alonso [Championship Titles : 2 (2005,2006)]
6) Nelson Piquet Jr.

Williams Toyota

Williams, probably one of the most improved teams in the 2007 season after quite a good come back from a dismal 2006 campaign in which they spent pretty much the entire season nearer to the back of the pack will be looking to build on their 2007 form and should very well be capable of doing so with the teams rich Formula history. The team have clearly looked quick out of the box in the recent tests and will once again have Nico Rosberg who would be partnered by another relatively rookie driver Kazuki Nakajima, Nico clearly proved his talent in 2007 after clearly beating Alex Wurz for pretty much the entire season and also completely outpacing current team mate Kazuki Nakajima in his debut in the final race of the season. This could be a make or break season for the team.

7) Nico Rosberg
8) Kazuki Nakajima

Red Bull Renault

Red Bull are certainly looking to break out of the midfield this season and possibly enjoy a more reliable ride to the finish as well, the team faired average at best for most of last season and will once again depend upon two experienced drivers in 13 time grand prix winner David Coulthard and Mark Webber, both drivers clearly have experience on their side by sadly time will not be and will clearly need to step up this season and deliver the goods.

9) David Coulthard
10) Mark Webber

Panasonic Toyota

Toyota are another team like Red Bull that clearly needs to break out of the midfield pack this season, after suffering a rather mediocre time since their debut into the sport in 2002, the team has sadly not looked like a contending force in any of the seasons since them with their biggest achievement being named best of the rest in 2005. With Ralf Schumacher being shown the door at the end of a torrid 2007 season, the team will rely on old and new this season with grand prix winner Jarno Trulli being joined by the reigning GP2 champion & former Jordan Grand Prix Timo Glock who did impress once before just enough to be noticed back with Jordan F1 in the 2004 season. This season could prove vital to the company’s commitment on their ongoing Formula 1 project.

11) Jarno Trulli
12) Timo Glock

Scuderia Toro Rosso Ferrari

Red Bull’s satellite team clearly made heads turn at the end of last season with young gun Sebastian Vettel at the wheel who nearly challenged for the win at the torrentially wet Japanese GP and a week later challenged for the podium at the wet/dry Chinese GP, the team could very well shake up things with the main Red Bull team this season and will clearly have no intention of doing other wise after matching them or beating them on pace in the last 3-4 GP’s last season, and their driver line up seems like their strongest as well with Sebastian Vettel being retained and 4 time IRL champion Sebastien Bourdais joining up with his this season.

14) Sebastien Bourdais
15) Sebastian Vettel

Honda F1

After a strong and solid showing in 2006 where the team took their first GP win, Honda were nothing short of horrifying in 2007 after struggling to make the top 16 in qualifying on many occasions and coming away with just a handful of points courtesy of Jenson Button whilst their other driver and former Ferrari GP winner Rubens Barrichello came away with none, this season will hopefully be an uphill season for the team after taking on the services of former Ferrari technical director Ross Brawn. The drivers and the team will be pushing hard this season and probably wouldn’t disappoint either. Rubens Barrichello could go on to be the most experienced ever formula one driver this season on another note.

16) Jenson Button
17) Rubens Barrichello

Super Aguri Honda

The Super Aguri team will be looking to build on a rather strong 2007 season after coming seriously close to beating their parent team Honda and being a seriously threat to them all season despite facing many financial problems throughout the season, the team are yet to confirm a #2 driver for the 2008 season but it’s most likely to be a repeat of last seasons duo once again with Takuma Sato being partnered by Anthony Davidson, both drivers showed promise last season and Takuma looked much more refined and mature as well. The team will be raring with all cylinders firing this season in order to once again move up the order.

18) Takuma Sato
19) Anthony Davidson (?)

Force India F1 Ferrari

The Force India F1 team has a lot of national pride resting on its shoulders and will be determent to not disappoint, the team having gone through 4 name changes in the last 4 seasons will be looking for much needed continuity. Despite all the speculation of an Indian driver being quite easily handed a drive or perhaps even both seats in the team, it was to much surprise that the team decided to retain Adrian Sutil and partner him with Giancarlo Fisichella for the season ahead. Sutil will be keen on outpacing Fisichella this season whilst Fisichella would be keen on proving his mettle after being decimated by 2 young gun drivers in the last 3 seasons. The team would definitely be looking at taking some points finishes this season and would want nothing less.

20) Giancarlo Fisichella
21) Adrian Sutil

Vodafone McLaren Mercedes

After coming ever so close to taking the title for the first time in nearly 10 seasons last season McLaren Mercedes battled with plenty of controversies all the way through the 2007 season which ended up with the team being fined a hefty 100 million dollars and also being excluded from the constructers championship after being accused of stealing designs from rivals Ferrari, besides that the drivers also had many a issue with each other and that ended up with the early season fairy tale pairing of 2 times world champion Fernando Alonso and Lewis Hamilton in tatters by the end of the season, McLaren however parted ways with Alonso and retained Hamilton and partnered him up with Heikki Kovaleinen for this season and will once again be looking to be Ferrari’s main threat and hopefully stay out of the controversies and put the past behind them.

22) Lewis Hamilton
23) Heikki Kovaleinen

Good Mornin' March

It’s been a while since I wrote a proper blog now…

It seems like this year is somehow going as quickly by as last year did, I’m finding it rather hard to comprehend that we’re already in March, it feels like the new year was just yesterday, there are quite a couple of things that I’m looking forward to this month actually, like for starters, it’s going to be our 4th month together, I somehow find having this little monthly anniversary thing cute… Besides that the Formula 1 season kicks off in two weeks and the Moto GP season kicks off next week so at least I won’t find myself bored during the evening’s on the weekend (not that I’m bored right now either, but you get the drift)… And it seems like I hopefully (fingers crossed) will be done with my animation course by this month end.

As for the recent movies I’ve seen lately (which haven’t been many really), I’d have to say that I found Jumper to be a huge disappointment really, I honestly thought it would be a hell of a lot better than what it is, I believe that the trailer is actually a lot more entertaining than the movie itself, but never the less it’s at least watchable for a single time. Besides that I borrowed the Hitman DVD from a friend the other day and I actually found it to be quite a decent movie despite the fact that you get the feeling that it’s all been done before in previous movies in slightly different guises, it’s a good solid movie to watch a time or two, and contrary to what a few people have been saying that the movie isn’t brutal enough, I personally think it just depends on how you look at it really… In the end I found it satisfying enough.

As usual I cannot help but write a little something for my lovely Nivy,

I don’t know if she realizes this but at times she gives me so much of inspiration to do so many things that I find it just nothing short of unbelievable, I haven’t really found myself being so inspired by anyone or anything in the past. She’s given me probably more than I really deserve and need as well, She’s given me the feeling of being able to truly feel in myself that our relationship is really going to be the one that lasts forever… I can never really stop adoring her every inch and loving her all the time. Everything about her and everything she does is just so beautiful... I just wish there was some way i could keep her forever despite the fact that i know i can't right now...

Well, then… I’m done for now.
The End.

Interesting :o

Check out that name... Interesting... Hmm. ;o

A Letter To The Girl I Love To Call My Wife…

Have you ever stopped and found yourself in one of those moments when you knew that you were well and truly in love and come what may, you knew that you would spend your life with that person loving them every single day ? I’ve found myself to be in that situation ever since I met this girl which I’ve obviously talked a lot about so I’m positive everyone knows exactly who she is by now.

We’ve probably gone through a lot more than what one would go through in a marriage of 10 years or more in the few months that we’ve been together and despite a few of those times being a tad painful, it’s for the good in the end since I believe it has come a long way in strengthening the core of our relationship.

At times I feel like I honestly don’t deserve something as perfect as she is, but after a few minutes I also realize that we’re perfect for each other and completely meant to be for now and forever, I find myself feeling like the happiest guy on earth when I think about the fact that I’m really the only one who could have my lips locked with hers and my arms wrapped ever so tightly around her 24/7 if I felt like it. And what makes all that even more complete is the fact that I know she’d like every little feeling I feel emotionally and physically towards her too.

Every time she crawls up into bed and lays down on top of me and then begins to kiss me, I find everything inside me flutter about with a million different emotions and I honestly can’t explain how beautiful she looks every single one of those times. Waking up to her voice on the phone or her face on the pillow beside me has given me the best mornings of my life… The way she loves me is something that really can’t be described with words, it’s like this endless source of something which never ceases to stop, instead it just keeps on getting stronger and stronger every second. It’s an amazing feeling every time the realization dawns on me that this girl and every little inch of her is all mine and will always be all mine.

It’s probably the most beautiful feeling ever when she makes me feel so many things I haven’t felt before, I’ve begun to have lost count of all the ways that she’s done this to me… The love she manages to show even if it’s while doing something as small as just cooking dinner or holding hands and walking down the road never ceases to get tears into my eyes when I think about all the memories we’ve made together, and I long to make more of them with her in the future. At times I feel that with her one lifetime is really too short, and if I possibly could I honestly would want to be the one she falls in love with again in another life. She really is one of those girls who you’d never want to leave for anything on this earth and would go through anything just to spend another minute with her.

At times I find myself being affected, bothered or hurt by some of the probably silliest things, it’s strange really… Things like picturing her with some guy from her past (despite the fact that they mean fuck all to her now) tear me up inside, knowing me I probably would literally murder anyone who even attempted flirting with her or bothering her in any way at all… I’m probably beginning to sound like some over protective maniac here but I can’t really be bothered.

There was a time when I thought that people couldn’t ever change and they are what they are really but somehow my she managed to change my definition on that because, I’ve seen her make so many changes in her life for me and I can see the changes I’ve made to myself as well in my life, She’s thought me so many things like patience, understanding, faithfulness, those are probably three things which I didn’t even remotely have before I met her, she’s also thought me how to trust someone, which is something I really found and thought was the next thing to impossible.

In the end when I sit back and think about everything, I find it most amazing how we’ve managed to get from the way we met to where we are now, and I hope she knows that she’s the one who has the love of every drop of blood in me and locked herself up inside my heart and threw away the key, her safety, comfort and happiness mean the world to me and despite the fact that I may falter in providing her with the last one at times I know she knows that I don’t really mean to do it on purpose.

She’s given me all I need and I never ever will let my baby go…
I can’t really describe how it feels to be a ME with a YOU in my life…

So, with that said… that is all I have to say for now.
Sirdath & Niveditha Divakaruni always and forever…

Relationships

Relationships

It’s funny how I see and hear about so many relationships pretty much falling to pieces and to be honest it sort of makes me understand how strong my very own relationship is since the reasons for some of those break-ups of other couples that I have seen and heard of are really quite petty to be honest. Relationships in my opinion are hard to make and extremely easy to break, it’s quite strange how people let them go so easily as well with spur of the moment decisions completely hasty and out of anger towards that other person for that particular period of time, personally I can admit to having been that hasty with the words I’ve been saying in the recent past and there comes a point of time when one begins to realize whether venting your feelings in that way was really worth it, especially when you don’t realize what you’re saying and you’re just saying it to make your self feel like you’ve vented what ever was anger or emotions inside you but then you end up figuring out that you really were slashing the other person to bits with every single word and then it hits you real hard all of a sudden to the point of not knowing what to do really.

In my personal opinion the only real way to fix a broken relationship is to drop the ego’s and somehow search deep inside your soul whether you’d be happier with or without that significant person in your life and if you still do want them, you really just have to somehow find it in your soul and somehow pull out a thing called forgiveness and put the negative things in the past if you really want to get a move on things in the future, sticking on to the negative things in the past is just going to end up digging up a bunch more debates and ghosts in ones closet that really are not needed… Lies are usually the cause for most break ups and I personally feel that they can destroy any sort of a relationship between anyone and despite the fact it’s really unavoidable to lie at times in order to make things a tad easier on oneself, inevitably in the end you end up getting caught between a bunch of several lies that you really have no where to turn or to go. I still really haven’t figured out why people lie about being unfaithful to each other, although from what I have figured out, I suppose it’s either because they’re scared of losing that person or those people due to the fact that they’re emotionally attached to them or perhaps they do it for the adrenalin rush of just knowing they can have any person they want… I do also suppose there are some people who are just too bloody stupid to really know what they’re even doing in the first place.

I have a couple of words of advice to all you ladies and lads out there… I’m going to start of with my advice to the ladies first since I’ve obviously and hopefully managed to understand the opposite sex better than 50% of the guys out there and probably better than some women understand themselves.

There are 4 kinds of women in my opinion… [You might think that I’m being a tad biased here in judging women in general in just 4 different ways, but the truth of the matter is that despite the fact that every one is different, when you break it down into the simplest of forms, in my opinion at least there really are only 4 kinds of women]

1. The kind that know what they want whilst also knowing what’s done and what’s not done in a relationship in order to make it last successfully for a lifetime. (I’m quite happy to say that my girl comes from this group).


2. The kind that know what they want whilst also being complete bitches at the same time. (Let’s just say I’ve had a lot of bad experiences with this lot in the past, psst… this bunch is generally easy to get with most of the time).

3. The kind that really don’t know what they want and even what they want the next moment isn’t what they REALLY do want and are really quite fickle minded for about 99% of the time. (Things really can go both ways this bunch… It’s a 50/50 thing here).

4. The kind that are really too scared to get into a relationship or are too conservative to have one. (Don’t even go here unless you’re really brilliant at changing peoples perspectives on things).

Let’s begin with my personal advice to them,

· The first group really need no advice in my opinion as it’s obvious that they really could successfully manage to get any guy that they want and hold them down into a successful relationship

· The second group on the other hand in my opinion should probably either get used to being labeled as bitches and if not, they really ought to get their head in the right place before it’s too late cause if they do it wouldn’t be too hard for them to get it in there and stick it in with the first group, all it takes it a bit of perspective changes on their part.

· The third group really ought to concentrate more on just taking some time out and figuring out what makes them happy in life since most of them really do have a shot at something good if they just begin to understand what they want from not only other people but also themselves, if not there’s always the Britney Spears route to take.

· The fourth group really ought to get out there more and figure out what they’re missing, Perhaps a previous bad experience locked them into the cell they’re in, but I personally feel that even if one does go through bad experiences in the past it only is for something better that’s about to come around the corner.. The point is to never give up. And as for the ones who are too conservative, get out more! Before you’re in your 40’s and are still living with your parents and by their rules.

Okay then, lets move on to the lads now, I’m not going to do the whole characterization thing here due to the fact that I simply haven’t had any previous experiences with them (HAPPY REALIZATION!!! I don’t slant both ways)… But from my very own critical way, this is what I have to say about them and personally advice them.

Most guys do know how to keep a relationship but some of them really don’t know how to put it across due to the fact that they thing they’d be letting their masculinity down by being honest with their feelings and end up looking either bloody stupid or just plainly like a pervert, face it... it’s hard to understand women but fuckin’ try at the very least… A message to most of the guys out there, stop making us look so bloody bad. Getting back on topic... As for the guys who don’t value and treat their women or women in general like pieces of shit really by cheating on them whilst finding some sort of remote pleasure from it and being congratulated for their achievements as well being titled as a player by their posse or by physically hurting them in order to have some sort of dominance or power advantage over them should really get their dicks castrated, Personally I have faltered in the past due to being human and having and ego and being a tad over dominant but I did regret the mistake I had made hugely after I made it but there always is time to change in my opinion.

In the end, life’s what you make of it and so are relationships… The choices are in your hands really.

I’m outtie. Peace.

For Nivy...

"Did we lose ourselves again?
Do we take in what's been said?
Do we take the time to be
All the things we said we'd be
And we bury heads in sand
But my future's in my hands
It means nothing
It means nothing

You can find yourself a God
Believe in which one you want
'Cos they love you all the same
They just go by different names
When we fly our flag today
Are you proud or just ashamed?

It means nothing
If I haven't got you

And the sun sets in the sky
You're the apple of my eye
If the bomb goes off again
In my brain or on the train
I hope that I'm with you
'Cos I wouldn't know what to do
It means nothing"

Hopefully you completely understand the meaning behind these lyrics and hopefully you understand what i'm trying ever so hard to convey to you... It's sometimes ever so hard to tell you exactly how i feel and you tend to make it harder in the bargain.. I'm sorry for all the wrongs and if i could i would try to make them right..

There's never a decade, year, week, day, hour or second which i would spend without thinking of our love or anything we shared no matter where i am or who i'm with, i hope it's the same with you too........

It's 2:30 In The Morning And...

I can't help but find this sudden excitement inside me, it's hard to describe, perhaps it's that feeling you get when you're a kid and you're getting something you've always wanted the next morning.. well, it's something like that and i'm not going to be making much sense now considering the time...

The bottom line here is that i get to see her early tomorrow morning, and the only thing i really can think of doing right now is carrying her off that bus and wrapping my arms around her and never letting go as i look at her beautiful face.

That's about it really.. I'll probably blog about something in a while since i don't really plan on getting any sleep tonight since knowing me, i'd probably end up rather comfortably over sleeping and that's the last thing i want.

That's all for now. :)

Why I Love Her

Somehow today i was curious to know why she loved me so much, and even though i've wanted to ask her that question for some time now i've just never gotten down to asking it.. However i did finally do so today, and the answer i got left me feeling so speechless and amazed, and then she asked me the same question back, and i thought to myself that i'd rather put it into words since at times i find myself struggling to find the right words verbally to convey what i really do want to say.

I love you because no matter what the situation is, I only really see a you & me and i know for sure that i can face or get through anything just knowing that you're there with me.. Many times you've told me that i'm wanting a change from you ? The truth is i'm not looking for one.. I love you exactly for the person that you are and i would never want you to change, I personally feel that what i ask you for are compromises and not changes at times.. There is no feeling comparable to when i hear those three words from your mouth, I trust them so much. No matter how near or far away i am from you, i can feel you ever so deep inside of me... You can pretty much light up the sky for me on any day by just saying a line or two. Your love has taught me so many things, especially how to be patient, less impulsive, faithful and basically you've made me into the person i always wanted to and saw myself being.
I love you with every millimeter of my heart, body & soul and i always will forever.

For My Baby

And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale



Artist : Ben Jelen
Song : Come On

Ferrari F2008's First Time On Track

Fingers crossed over this being another title winning car.

A few pictures of my Nivy & Me...

A couple of pics that we took together at Hyderabad between December 19th 2007 - January 1st 2008.

The Love Of My Life

It all started out on October 15th 2007 when i met this girl in not a very usual way like you'd normally meet someone with whom you want to spend your life with.

At first we started talking occasionally and casually for the first 10 days that i knew her until something happened between us on October 26th 2007 and all of a sudden on one hand i felt like i actually begun to feel something for her (like this small spark beginning to burn inside) but on the other hand she left me feeling a tad confused and wondering why what happened, just happened... After that we both didn't really have any contact with each other for a while up until the night that was November 13th 2007 where we started talking again and something happened to click between us this way and it confirmed the fact that i had actually begun to feel a growing spark inside for this girl.. (I even found out why she left me feeling the way she did about a bit over 2 weeks ago that day and was pleasantly relieved inside).

As the first few days slowly went by i found myself slowly beginning to find out more of what was underneath this girl that i thought was just plain tomboyish and flirtatious at first and i'm sure that she began to find out more about what was underneath me who would be the guy of whom she thought was just another playboy.. We both slowly began to realize that this feeling that we had for each other slowly became the fact that we were totally falling in love with each other and yet strangely we hadn't ever even seen in each other face to face.

Within a month later we had this incredible bond that i had never felt with anyone else, for the first time in my life i felt this incredible level of trust that i had in someone and i felt so loved, happy & comfortable in the relationship we had, i was already beginning to believe that we were inseparable and this was THE GIRL that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Finally the time had come after this long painful wait for me to finally get on that bus on December 19th 2007, all those days of waiting to feel her touch, kiss her lips, embrace her as tight as possible, look her in her eye and tell her how much i felt for her was finally going to happen... As i boarded the bus and watched the rain pour the down the sides of the windows i couldn't get my mind of her, i was longing to in some way or the other speed time up so that the morning would come and i'd be in her arms, i tried sleeping but i couldn't and then when i finally did, my phone began to vibrate and her named flashed on the screen and she said all the perfect words in those few minutes that we spoke and despite the fact that the phone eventually lost signal since i was now well down a cold, lonely & extremely dark highway.

As morning came, i hadn't slept a wink and i couldn't wait for the bus to pull over at the bus stop and for me to see the love of my life awaiting me but sadly due to a little bit of a confusion which was partly down my fault she wasn't and i was in one of those good things come to boys who wait moments... I tried eating my breakfast that day but i couldn't really manage to get it down (like i normally would being the foodie that i am) since i was way too deep into anticipating her now... Finally the moment arrived when i turned around and saw her in a surprising moment to where my heart nearly stopped for a moment and then she brushed her face against mine and placed the softest kiss on my cheek and softly said "hey baby"... For the next few minutes i found myself being a bit tongue tied since i suddenly felt this rush of feelings all somehow slowing the words that was supposed to come out of my mouth.

The next 11 days i had with her all seemed to go by so fast yet blissfully nice no matter what the situation was at that point of time seemed so perfect for only one reason and that was because i knew i had her for the rest of my life no matter what.

We probably found our selves being pretty much uncontrollably attracted to each other and i don't personally think i've ever had this uncontrollable want for some earlier, It's amazing to see her wake up every morning beside me and throw my clothes on and make me breakfast (maggi noodles to be precise *cough* plug) and then sit there on the floor and just gaze at each other while we ate. I loved how i could find the things that i would normally consider boring, like going to handloom festivals to be ever so interesting when i was there holding her hand and spending the whole day at one of them just walking around and talking to each other and occasionally placing the odd passionate kiss on each others lips, did i forget to mention the night when i got down on my knees and proposed to her out of nowhere despite the fact that i had no ring and then when she asked me for a ring, i placed a vicks inhaler keyring on her finger and told her that it was her ring for now.. These moments (and the memories we make in the future) would probably be imprinted in my head for the rest of my life till the day i finally leave this world.

But as all good things had to end i had to leave her for a while so i hugged her real tight and then kissed her on her sweet lips and felt her as closely as possibly and told her that i'd love her forever and that we'd be together sooner than she thinks and now i once again find myself ever so far away from her and even though it's about hard as it gets, the only thing that keeps me happy at the end of the day is the fact that i know i'm going to see her again in just under 3 weeks away and probably a bit over a month from now i'm no longer going to be forced to be this far away from her any more (that's right, you guessed it.. I'm moving).

When you read this Nivy, i want you to know that i will always love you with every tiny bit of my heart, body & soul for the rest of my life and everything you've given me has been nothing short of beautiful and i would treasure it always.. You don't ever have to worry about us ever being apart despite the fact that we might say the wrong things to each other in the heat of a moment but i want you to know that never once has it or will the idea of me being without you ever crossed my mind, I've began to do everything in my life with you in it and i really cannot ever see myself doing any of those things without you in it. In short, you are the love of my life.