Have you ever stopped and found yourself in one of those moments when you knew that you were well and truly in love and come what may, you knew that you would spend your life with that person loving them every single day ? I’ve found myself to be in that situation ever since I met this girl which I’ve obviously talked a lot about so I’m positive everyone knows exactly who she is by now.
We’ve probably gone through a lot more than what one would go through in a marriage of 10 years or more in the few months that we’ve been together and despite a few of those times being a tad painful, it’s for the good in the end since I believe it has come a long way in strengthening the core of our relationship.
At times I feel like I honestly don’t deserve something as perfect as she is, but after a few minutes I also realize that we’re perfect for each other and completely meant to be for now and forever, I find myself feeling like the happiest guy on earth when I think about the fact that I’m really the only one who could have my lips locked with hers and my arms wrapped ever so tightly around her 24/7 if I felt like it. And what makes all that even more complete is the fact that I know she’d like every little feeling I feel emotionally and physically towards her too.
Every time she crawls up into bed and lays down on top of me and then begins to kiss me, I find everything inside me flutter about with a million different emotions and I honestly can’t explain how beautiful she looks every single one of those times. Waking up to her voice on the phone or her face on the pillow beside me has given me the best mornings of my life… The way she loves me is something that really can’t be described with words, it’s like this endless source of something which never ceases to stop, instead it just keeps on getting stronger and stronger every second. It’s an amazing feeling every time the realization dawns on me that this girl and every little inch of her is all mine and will always be all mine.
It’s probably the most beautiful feeling ever when she makes me feel so many things I haven’t felt before, I’ve begun to have lost count of all the ways that she’s done this to me… The love she manages to show even if it’s while doing something as small as just cooking dinner or holding hands and walking down the road never ceases to get tears into my eyes when I think about all the memories we’ve made together, and I long to make more of them with her in the future. At times I feel that with her one lifetime is really too short, and if I possibly could I honestly would want to be the one she falls in love with again in another life. She really is one of those girls who you’d never want to leave for anything on this earth and would go through anything just to spend another minute with her.
At times I find myself being affected, bothered or hurt by some of the probably silliest things, it’s strange really… Things like picturing her with some guy from her past (despite the fact that they mean fuck all to her now) tear me up inside, knowing me I probably would literally murder anyone who even attempted flirting with her or bothering her in any way at all… I’m probably beginning to sound like some over protective maniac here but I can’t really be bothered.
There was a time when I thought that people couldn’t ever change and they are what they are really but somehow my she managed to change my definition on that because, I’ve seen her make so many changes in her life for me and I can see the changes I’ve made to myself as well in my life, She’s thought me so many things like patience, understanding, faithfulness, those are probably three things which I didn’t even remotely have before I met her, she’s also thought me how to trust someone, which is something I really found and thought was the next thing to impossible.
In the end when I sit back and think about everything, I find it most amazing how we’ve managed to get from the way we met to where we are now, and I hope she knows that she’s the one who has the love of every drop of blood in me and locked herself up inside my heart and threw away the key, her safety, comfort and happiness mean the world to me and despite the fact that I may falter in providing her with the last one at times I know she knows that I don’t really mean to do it on purpose.
She’s given me all I need and I never ever will let my baby go…
I can’t really describe how it feels to be a ME with a YOU in my life…
So, with that said… that is all I have to say for now.
Sirdath & Niveditha Divakaruni always and forever…
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Relationships
Relationships
It’s funny how I see and hear about so many relationships pretty much falling to pieces and to be honest it sort of makes me understand how strong my very own relationship is since the reasons for some of those break-ups of other couples that I have seen and heard of are really quite petty to be honest. Relationships in my opinion are hard to make and extremely easy to break, it’s quite strange how people let them go so easily as well with spur of the moment decisions completely hasty and out of anger towards that other person for that particular period of time, personally I can admit to having been that hasty with the words I’ve been saying in the recent past and there comes a point of time when one begins to realize whether venting your feelings in that way was really worth it, especially when you don’t realize what you’re saying and you’re just saying it to make your self feel like you’ve vented what ever was anger or emotions inside you but then you end up figuring out that you really were slashing the other person to bits with every single word and then it hits you real hard all of a sudden to the point of not knowing what to do really.
In my personal opinion the only real way to fix a broken relationship is to drop the ego’s and somehow search deep inside your soul whether you’d be happier with or without that significant person in your life and if you still do want them, you really just have to somehow find it in your soul and somehow pull out a thing called forgiveness and put the negative things in the past if you really want to get a move on things in the future, sticking on to the negative things in the past is just going to end up digging up a bunch more debates and ghosts in ones closet that really are not needed… Lies are usually the cause for most break ups and I personally feel that they can destroy any sort of a relationship between anyone and despite the fact it’s really unavoidable to lie at times in order to make things a tad easier on oneself, inevitably in the end you end up getting caught between a bunch of several lies that you really have no where to turn or to go. I still really haven’t figured out why people lie about being unfaithful to each other, although from what I have figured out, I suppose it’s either because they’re scared of losing that person or those people due to the fact that they’re emotionally attached to them or perhaps they do it for the adrenalin rush of just knowing they can have any person they want… I do also suppose there are some people who are just too bloody stupid to really know what they’re even doing in the first place.
I have a couple of words of advice to all you ladies and lads out there… I’m going to start of with my advice to the ladies first since I’ve obviously and hopefully managed to understand the opposite sex better than 50% of the guys out there and probably better than some women understand themselves.
There are 4 kinds of women in my opinion… [You might think that I’m being a tad biased here in judging women in general in just 4 different ways, but the truth of the matter is that despite the fact that every one is different, when you break it down into the simplest of forms, in my opinion at least there really are only 4 kinds of women]
1. The kind that know what they want whilst also knowing what’s done and what’s not done in a relationship in order to make it last successfully for a lifetime. (I’m quite happy to say that my girl comes from this group).
2. The kind that know what they want whilst also being complete bitches at the same time. (Let’s just say I’ve had a lot of bad experiences with this lot in the past, psst… this bunch is generally easy to get with most of the time).
3. The kind that really don’t know what they want and even what they want the next moment isn’t what they REALLY do want and are really quite fickle minded for about 99% of the time. (Things really can go both ways this bunch… It’s a 50/50 thing here).
4. The kind that are really too scared to get into a relationship or are too conservative to have one. (Don’t even go here unless you’re really brilliant at changing peoples perspectives on things).
Let’s begin with my personal advice to them,
· The first group really need no advice in my opinion as it’s obvious that they really could successfully manage to get any guy that they want and hold them down into a successful relationship
· The second group on the other hand in my opinion should probably either get used to being labeled as bitches and if not, they really ought to get their head in the right place before it’s too late cause if they do it wouldn’t be too hard for them to get it in there and stick it in with the first group, all it takes it a bit of perspective changes on their part.
· The third group really ought to concentrate more on just taking some time out and figuring out what makes them happy in life since most of them really do have a shot at something good if they just begin to understand what they want from not only other people but also themselves, if not there’s always the Britney Spears route to take.
· The fourth group really ought to get out there more and figure out what they’re missing, Perhaps a previous bad experience locked them into the cell they’re in, but I personally feel that even if one does go through bad experiences in the past it only is for something better that’s about to come around the corner.. The point is to never give up. And as for the ones who are too conservative, get out more! Before you’re in your 40’s and are still living with your parents and by their rules.
Okay then, lets move on to the lads now, I’m not going to do the whole characterization thing here due to the fact that I simply haven’t had any previous experiences with them (HAPPY REALIZATION!!! I don’t slant both ways)… But from my very own critical way, this is what I have to say about them and personally advice them.
Most guys do know how to keep a relationship but some of them really don’t know how to put it across due to the fact that they thing they’d be letting their masculinity down by being honest with their feelings and end up looking either bloody stupid or just plainly like a pervert, face it... it’s hard to understand women but fuckin’ try at the very least… A message to most of the guys out there, stop making us look so bloody bad. Getting back on topic... As for the guys who don’t value and treat their women or women in general like pieces of shit really by cheating on them whilst finding some sort of remote pleasure from it and being congratulated for their achievements as well being titled as a player by their posse or by physically hurting them in order to have some sort of dominance or power advantage over them should really get their dicks castrated, Personally I have faltered in the past due to being human and having and ego and being a tad over dominant but I did regret the mistake I had made hugely after I made it but there always is time to change in my opinion.
In the end, life’s what you make of it and so are relationships… The choices are in your hands really.
I’m outtie. Peace.
It’s funny how I see and hear about so many relationships pretty much falling to pieces and to be honest it sort of makes me understand how strong my very own relationship is since the reasons for some of those break-ups of other couples that I have seen and heard of are really quite petty to be honest. Relationships in my opinion are hard to make and extremely easy to break, it’s quite strange how people let them go so easily as well with spur of the moment decisions completely hasty and out of anger towards that other person for that particular period of time, personally I can admit to having been that hasty with the words I’ve been saying in the recent past and there comes a point of time when one begins to realize whether venting your feelings in that way was really worth it, especially when you don’t realize what you’re saying and you’re just saying it to make your self feel like you’ve vented what ever was anger or emotions inside you but then you end up figuring out that you really were slashing the other person to bits with every single word and then it hits you real hard all of a sudden to the point of not knowing what to do really.
In my personal opinion the only real way to fix a broken relationship is to drop the ego’s and somehow search deep inside your soul whether you’d be happier with or without that significant person in your life and if you still do want them, you really just have to somehow find it in your soul and somehow pull out a thing called forgiveness and put the negative things in the past if you really want to get a move on things in the future, sticking on to the negative things in the past is just going to end up digging up a bunch more debates and ghosts in ones closet that really are not needed… Lies are usually the cause for most break ups and I personally feel that they can destroy any sort of a relationship between anyone and despite the fact it’s really unavoidable to lie at times in order to make things a tad easier on oneself, inevitably in the end you end up getting caught between a bunch of several lies that you really have no where to turn or to go. I still really haven’t figured out why people lie about being unfaithful to each other, although from what I have figured out, I suppose it’s either because they’re scared of losing that person or those people due to the fact that they’re emotionally attached to them or perhaps they do it for the adrenalin rush of just knowing they can have any person they want… I do also suppose there are some people who are just too bloody stupid to really know what they’re even doing in the first place.
I have a couple of words of advice to all you ladies and lads out there… I’m going to start of with my advice to the ladies first since I’ve obviously and hopefully managed to understand the opposite sex better than 50% of the guys out there and probably better than some women understand themselves.
There are 4 kinds of women in my opinion… [You might think that I’m being a tad biased here in judging women in general in just 4 different ways, but the truth of the matter is that despite the fact that every one is different, when you break it down into the simplest of forms, in my opinion at least there really are only 4 kinds of women]
1. The kind that know what they want whilst also knowing what’s done and what’s not done in a relationship in order to make it last successfully for a lifetime. (I’m quite happy to say that my girl comes from this group).
2. The kind that know what they want whilst also being complete bitches at the same time. (Let’s just say I’ve had a lot of bad experiences with this lot in the past, psst… this bunch is generally easy to get with most of the time).
3. The kind that really don’t know what they want and even what they want the next moment isn’t what they REALLY do want and are really quite fickle minded for about 99% of the time. (Things really can go both ways this bunch… It’s a 50/50 thing here).
4. The kind that are really too scared to get into a relationship or are too conservative to have one. (Don’t even go here unless you’re really brilliant at changing peoples perspectives on things).
Let’s begin with my personal advice to them,
· The first group really need no advice in my opinion as it’s obvious that they really could successfully manage to get any guy that they want and hold them down into a successful relationship
· The second group on the other hand in my opinion should probably either get used to being labeled as bitches and if not, they really ought to get their head in the right place before it’s too late cause if they do it wouldn’t be too hard for them to get it in there and stick it in with the first group, all it takes it a bit of perspective changes on their part.
· The third group really ought to concentrate more on just taking some time out and figuring out what makes them happy in life since most of them really do have a shot at something good if they just begin to understand what they want from not only other people but also themselves, if not there’s always the Britney Spears route to take.
· The fourth group really ought to get out there more and figure out what they’re missing, Perhaps a previous bad experience locked them into the cell they’re in, but I personally feel that even if one does go through bad experiences in the past it only is for something better that’s about to come around the corner.. The point is to never give up. And as for the ones who are too conservative, get out more! Before you’re in your 40’s and are still living with your parents and by their rules.
Okay then, lets move on to the lads now, I’m not going to do the whole characterization thing here due to the fact that I simply haven’t had any previous experiences with them (HAPPY REALIZATION!!! I don’t slant both ways)… But from my very own critical way, this is what I have to say about them and personally advice them.
Most guys do know how to keep a relationship but some of them really don’t know how to put it across due to the fact that they thing they’d be letting their masculinity down by being honest with their feelings and end up looking either bloody stupid or just plainly like a pervert, face it... it’s hard to understand women but fuckin’ try at the very least… A message to most of the guys out there, stop making us look so bloody bad. Getting back on topic... As for the guys who don’t value and treat their women or women in general like pieces of shit really by cheating on them whilst finding some sort of remote pleasure from it and being congratulated for their achievements as well being titled as a player by their posse or by physically hurting them in order to have some sort of dominance or power advantage over them should really get their dicks castrated, Personally I have faltered in the past due to being human and having and ego and being a tad over dominant but I did regret the mistake I had made hugely after I made it but there always is time to change in my opinion.
In the end, life’s what you make of it and so are relationships… The choices are in your hands really.
I’m outtie. Peace.
Monday, February 11, 2008
For Nivy...
"Did we lose ourselves again?
Do we take in what's been said?
Do we take the time to be
All the things we said we'd be
And we bury heads in sand
But my future's in my hands
It means nothing
It means nothing
You can find yourself a God
Believe in which one you want
'Cos they love you all the same
They just go by different names
When we fly our flag today
Are you proud or just ashamed?
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
And the sun sets in the sky
You're the apple of my eye
If the bomb goes off again
In my brain or on the train
I hope that I'm with you
'Cos I wouldn't know what to do
It means nothing"
Hopefully you completely understand the meaning behind these lyrics and hopefully you understand what i'm trying ever so hard to convey to you... It's sometimes ever so hard to tell you exactly how i feel and you tend to make it harder in the bargain.. I'm sorry for all the wrongs and if i could i would try to make them right..
There's never a decade, year, week, day, hour or second which i would spend without thinking of our love or anything we shared no matter where i am or who i'm with, i hope it's the same with you too........
Do we take in what's been said?
Do we take the time to be
All the things we said we'd be
And we bury heads in sand
But my future's in my hands
It means nothing
It means nothing
You can find yourself a God
Believe in which one you want
'Cos they love you all the same
They just go by different names
When we fly our flag today
Are you proud or just ashamed?
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
And the sun sets in the sky
You're the apple of my eye
If the bomb goes off again
In my brain or on the train
I hope that I'm with you
'Cos I wouldn't know what to do
It means nothing"
Hopefully you completely understand the meaning behind these lyrics and hopefully you understand what i'm trying ever so hard to convey to you... It's sometimes ever so hard to tell you exactly how i feel and you tend to make it harder in the bargain.. I'm sorry for all the wrongs and if i could i would try to make them right..
There's never a decade, year, week, day, hour or second which i would spend without thinking of our love or anything we shared no matter where i am or who i'm with, i hope it's the same with you too........
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