I can't help but find this sudden excitement inside me, it's hard to describe, perhaps it's that feeling you get when you're a kid and you're getting something you've always wanted the next morning.. well, it's something like that and i'm not going to be making much sense now considering the time...
The bottom line here is that i get to see her early tomorrow morning, and the only thing i really can think of doing right now is carrying her off that bus and wrapping my arms around her and never letting go as i look at her beautiful face.
That's about it really.. I'll probably blog about something in a while since i don't really plan on getting any sleep tonight since knowing me, i'd probably end up rather comfortably over sleeping and that's the last thing i want.
That's all for now. :)
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Why I Love Her
Somehow today i was curious to know why she loved me so much, and even though i've wanted to ask her that question for some time now i've just never gotten down to asking it.. However i did finally do so today, and the answer i got left me feeling so speechless and amazed, and then she asked me the same question back, and i thought to myself that i'd rather put it into words since at times i find myself struggling to find the right words verbally to convey what i really do want to say.
I love you because no matter what the situation is, I only really see a you & me and i know for sure that i can face or get through anything just knowing that you're there with me.. Many times you've told me that i'm wanting a change from you ? The truth is i'm not looking for one.. I love you exactly for the person that you are and i would never want you to change, I personally feel that what i ask you for are compromises and not changes at times.. There is no feeling comparable to when i hear those three words from your mouth, I trust them so much. No matter how near or far away i am from you, i can feel you ever so deep inside of me... You can pretty much light up the sky for me on any day by just saying a line or two. Your love has taught me so many things, especially how to be patient, less impulsive, faithful and basically you've made me into the person i always wanted to and saw myself being.
I love you with every millimeter of my heart, body & soul and i always will forever.
I love you because no matter what the situation is, I only really see a you & me and i know for sure that i can face or get through anything just knowing that you're there with me.. Many times you've told me that i'm wanting a change from you ? The truth is i'm not looking for one.. I love you exactly for the person that you are and i would never want you to change, I personally feel that what i ask you for are compromises and not changes at times.. There is no feeling comparable to when i hear those three words from your mouth, I trust them so much. No matter how near or far away i am from you, i can feel you ever so deep inside of me... You can pretty much light up the sky for me on any day by just saying a line or two. Your love has taught me so many things, especially how to be patient, less impulsive, faithful and basically you've made me into the person i always wanted to and saw myself being.
I love you with every millimeter of my heart, body & soul and i always will forever.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
For My Baby
And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale
Artist : Ben Jelen
Song : Come On
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale
Artist : Ben Jelen
Song : Come On
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
A few pictures of my Nivy & Me...
A couple of pics that we took together at Hyderabad between December 19th 2007 - January 1st 2008.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
The Love Of My Life
It all started out on October 15th 2007 when i met this girl in not a very usual way like you'd normally meet someone with whom you want to spend your life with.
At first we started talking occasionally and casually for the first 10 days that i knew her until something happened between us on October 26th 2007 and all of a sudden on one hand i felt like i actually begun to feel something for her (like this small spark beginning to burn inside) but on the other hand she left me feeling a tad confused and wondering why what happened, just happened... After that we both didn't really have any contact with each other for a while up until the night that was November 13th 2007 where we started talking again and something happened to click between us this way and it confirmed the fact that i had actually begun to feel a growing spark inside for this girl.. (I even found out why she left me feeling the way she did about a bit over 2 weeks ago that day and was pleasantly relieved inside).
As the first few days slowly went by i found myself slowly beginning to find out more of what was underneath this girl that i thought was just plain tomboyish and flirtatious at first and i'm sure that she began to find out more about what was underneath me who would be the guy of whom she thought was just another playboy.. We both slowly began to realize that this feeling that we had for each other slowly became the fact that we were totally falling in love with each other and yet strangely we hadn't ever even seen in each other face to face.
Within a month later we had this incredible bond that i had never felt with anyone else, for the first time in my life i felt this incredible level of trust that i had in someone and i felt so loved, happy & comfortable in the relationship we had, i was already beginning to believe that we were inseparable and this was THE GIRL that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
Finally the time had come after this long painful wait for me to finally get on that bus on December 19th 2007, all those days of waiting to feel her touch, kiss her lips, embrace her as tight as possible, look her in her eye and tell her how much i felt for her was finally going to happen... As i boarded the bus and watched the rain pour the down the sides of the windows i couldn't get my mind of her, i was longing to in some way or the other speed time up so that the morning would come and i'd be in her arms, i tried sleeping but i couldn't and then when i finally did, my phone began to vibrate and her named flashed on the screen and she said all the perfect words in those few minutes that we spoke and despite the fact that the phone eventually lost signal since i was now well down a cold, lonely & extremely dark highway.
As morning came, i hadn't slept a wink and i couldn't wait for the bus to pull over at the bus stop and for me to see the love of my life awaiting me but sadly due to a little bit of a confusion which was partly down my fault she wasn't and i was in one of those good things come to boys who wait moments... I tried eating my breakfast that day but i couldn't really manage to get it down (like i normally would being the foodie that i am) since i was way too deep into anticipating her now... Finally the moment arrived when i turned around and saw her in a surprising moment to where my heart nearly stopped for a moment and then she brushed her face against mine and placed the softest kiss on my cheek and softly said "hey baby"... For the next few minutes i found myself being a bit tongue tied since i suddenly felt this rush of feelings all somehow slowing the words that was supposed to come out of my mouth.
The next 11 days i had with her all seemed to go by so fast yet blissfully nice no matter what the situation was at that point of time seemed so perfect for only one reason and that was because i knew i had her for the rest of my life no matter what.
We probably found our selves being pretty much uncontrollably attracted to each other and i don't personally think i've ever had this uncontrollable want for some earlier, It's amazing to see her wake up every morning beside me and throw my clothes on and make me breakfast (maggi noodles to be precise *cough* plug) and then sit there on the floor and just gaze at each other while we ate. I loved how i could find the things that i would normally consider boring, like going to handloom festivals to be ever so interesting when i was there holding her hand and spending the whole day at one of them just walking around and talking to each other and occasionally placing the odd passionate kiss on each others lips, did i forget to mention the night when i got down on my knees and proposed to her out of nowhere despite the fact that i had no ring and then when she asked me for a ring, i placed a vicks inhaler keyring on her finger and told her that it was her ring for now.. These moments (and the memories we make in the future) would probably be imprinted in my head for the rest of my life till the day i finally leave this world.
But as all good things had to end i had to leave her for a while so i hugged her real tight and then kissed her on her sweet lips and felt her as closely as possibly and told her that i'd love her forever and that we'd be together sooner than she thinks and now i once again find myself ever so far away from her and even though it's about hard as it gets, the only thing that keeps me happy at the end of the day is the fact that i know i'm going to see her again in just under 3 weeks away and probably a bit over a month from now i'm no longer going to be forced to be this far away from her any more (that's right, you guessed it.. I'm moving).
When you read this Nivy, i want you to know that i will always love you with every tiny bit of my heart, body & soul for the rest of my life and everything you've given me has been nothing short of beautiful and i would treasure it always.. You don't ever have to worry about us ever being apart despite the fact that we might say the wrong things to each other in the heat of a moment but i want you to know that never once has it or will the idea of me being without you ever crossed my mind, I've began to do everything in my life with you in it and i really cannot ever see myself doing any of those things without you in it. In short, you are the love of my life.
At first we started talking occasionally and casually for the first 10 days that i knew her until something happened between us on October 26th 2007 and all of a sudden on one hand i felt like i actually begun to feel something for her (like this small spark beginning to burn inside) but on the other hand she left me feeling a tad confused and wondering why what happened, just happened... After that we both didn't really have any contact with each other for a while up until the night that was November 13th 2007 where we started talking again and something happened to click between us this way and it confirmed the fact that i had actually begun to feel a growing spark inside for this girl.. (I even found out why she left me feeling the way she did about a bit over 2 weeks ago that day and was pleasantly relieved inside).
As the first few days slowly went by i found myself slowly beginning to find out more of what was underneath this girl that i thought was just plain tomboyish and flirtatious at first and i'm sure that she began to find out more about what was underneath me who would be the guy of whom she thought was just another playboy.. We both slowly began to realize that this feeling that we had for each other slowly became the fact that we were totally falling in love with each other and yet strangely we hadn't ever even seen in each other face to face.
Within a month later we had this incredible bond that i had never felt with anyone else, for the first time in my life i felt this incredible level of trust that i had in someone and i felt so loved, happy & comfortable in the relationship we had, i was already beginning to believe that we were inseparable and this was THE GIRL that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
Finally the time had come after this long painful wait for me to finally get on that bus on December 19th 2007, all those days of waiting to feel her touch, kiss her lips, embrace her as tight as possible, look her in her eye and tell her how much i felt for her was finally going to happen... As i boarded the bus and watched the rain pour the down the sides of the windows i couldn't get my mind of her, i was longing to in some way or the other speed time up so that the morning would come and i'd be in her arms, i tried sleeping but i couldn't and then when i finally did, my phone began to vibrate and her named flashed on the screen and she said all the perfect words in those few minutes that we spoke and despite the fact that the phone eventually lost signal since i was now well down a cold, lonely & extremely dark highway.
As morning came, i hadn't slept a wink and i couldn't wait for the bus to pull over at the bus stop and for me to see the love of my life awaiting me but sadly due to a little bit of a confusion which was partly down my fault she wasn't and i was in one of those good things come to boys who wait moments... I tried eating my breakfast that day but i couldn't really manage to get it down (like i normally would being the foodie that i am) since i was way too deep into anticipating her now... Finally the moment arrived when i turned around and saw her in a surprising moment to where my heart nearly stopped for a moment and then she brushed her face against mine and placed the softest kiss on my cheek and softly said "hey baby"... For the next few minutes i found myself being a bit tongue tied since i suddenly felt this rush of feelings all somehow slowing the words that was supposed to come out of my mouth.
The next 11 days i had with her all seemed to go by so fast yet blissfully nice no matter what the situation was at that point of time seemed so perfect for only one reason and that was because i knew i had her for the rest of my life no matter what.
We probably found our selves being pretty much uncontrollably attracted to each other and i don't personally think i've ever had this uncontrollable want for some earlier, It's amazing to see her wake up every morning beside me and throw my clothes on and make me breakfast (maggi noodles to be precise *cough* plug) and then sit there on the floor and just gaze at each other while we ate. I loved how i could find the things that i would normally consider boring, like going to handloom festivals to be ever so interesting when i was there holding her hand and spending the whole day at one of them just walking around and talking to each other and occasionally placing the odd passionate kiss on each others lips, did i forget to mention the night when i got down on my knees and proposed to her out of nowhere despite the fact that i had no ring and then when she asked me for a ring, i placed a vicks inhaler keyring on her finger and told her that it was her ring for now.. These moments (and the memories we make in the future) would probably be imprinted in my head for the rest of my life till the day i finally leave this world.
But as all good things had to end i had to leave her for a while so i hugged her real tight and then kissed her on her sweet lips and felt her as closely as possibly and told her that i'd love her forever and that we'd be together sooner than she thinks and now i once again find myself ever so far away from her and even though it's about hard as it gets, the only thing that keeps me happy at the end of the day is the fact that i know i'm going to see her again in just under 3 weeks away and probably a bit over a month from now i'm no longer going to be forced to be this far away from her any more (that's right, you guessed it.. I'm moving).
When you read this Nivy, i want you to know that i will always love you with every tiny bit of my heart, body & soul for the rest of my life and everything you've given me has been nothing short of beautiful and i would treasure it always.. You don't ever have to worry about us ever being apart despite the fact that we might say the wrong things to each other in the heat of a moment but i want you to know that never once has it or will the idea of me being without you ever crossed my mind, I've began to do everything in my life with you in it and i really cannot ever see myself doing any of those things without you in it. In short, you are the love of my life.
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